health diaries - sugar

over the past few years i have noticed my addiction to sugar. at every meal i would look around for dessert, or if i was eating out i would add ten or so dollars to the cost of my meal to include my sweets. i would feel instant bliss from eating those sugary foods, it was a way to make myself feel better.

i spoke to my naturopathic doctor and did my own research as to why these cravings occur and it all makes lots of sense now. i have undergone lots and lots of stress over the years. i remember my lungs filling up with poison that punctured my heart, my shirts soaking up my tears and collapsing on the ground in a messy heap of sobs. now that i think about it, this happened far too often and i am feeling sorry for my body. what an idiot i was.

i craved sugar and caffeine all the time which in turn forced my adrenal glands to give energy that it was lacking, forcing my body just to get by. those poor little glands must be exhausted from it all.

now, i am taking much better care of myself and the major stressor is gone, however the usual financial stress is always there and increases on certain days. i am now thinking very seriously about my studies. although i have started to see a naturopathic doctor, i have to space out my visits accordingly (as it is very costly!) and she will help me get back on track with my health, but the fees that come with prioritizing my health are high. healthy food is definitely not cheap these days, either.

i have cut refined sugar and caffeine from my life for the most part, which has drastically affected my energy levels and my cravings are skyrocketing. hopefully once i get supplements to support my adrenal glands these cravings will disappear..

 here's some pictures  to torture myself with:

ded.