Kombucha tea.

Recently, when going through a forum and many different blogs related to health, I stumbled upon this tea. It is called 'Kombucha' and is literally a symbiotic culture of bacteria and yeast. When making it, it is left to ferment for about a week or two and feeds off sugar and caffeine. It is typically a very sweet tea, but the longer it ferments, the more it it begins to smell and taste vinegar-y. The more vinegar-y it is, the stronger and healthier it is. It must be made with a SCOBY, lots and lots of really strong green or black tea, sugar, and previously made Kombucha tea. Because SCOBY's can be quite expensive, I'm going to make my own and begin brewing tea from it as soon as it's made. Each time tea is brewed, the mother SCOBY makes a baby SCOBY and yadda yadda, more tea for everyone.

I plan on brewing this very soon! It's a long process, but because of my past digestive health issues and how many antibiotics I had taken, I want to nurse the good bacteria back to health in my body. Probiotic tablets are quite expensive to purchase, so I figured this would be a cheaper alternative.

health report yada yada yada!

despite my usual lack of sleep, i have been feeling SUPER AMAZING FANTASTICBALLS these days. i've been taking supplements that naturally balance my hormones, improve my immune system and my overall health. it feels like my body is radiating  'FINALLY thank you thank you thank you thank you' by being extremely kind to me. i've noticed my energy levels are much higher and remain steady, my cravings for coffee are diminishing. my mood is much better and any upsetting thought that crosses my mind is easily dismissed, even when i'm angry i haven't stayed angry for very long. along with taking supplements i've been including a healthy variety in my meals so BEWM POW! energy.

i'm very happy with the changes i've been experiencing! now... all that's left is getting more sleep and getting into the habit of exercise....

i'll just leave this picture of my favorite marine animal here in the meantime:

i'm still very concerned about some things. the main thing i worry about is how skinny i am. i don't try to lose weight and i find myself staring at the bones in the mirror. i wasn't this skinny before and this dramatic weight loss doesn't make much sense to me. i'm not watching the scale, i'm not eating things in low-fat (even when i should) and sugar still has it's grip on me. i never miss a meal and have several during the day. i suppose this could be a healthier weight for me? i weighed a bit more when i still ate fast food and never anything rich in nutrients.. but still. i gross myself out. i hear people always commenting on my weight and i feel exposed and ashamed.

definitely something to bring up to my naturopath next time i see her... FAK

health diaries - sugar

over the past few years i have noticed my addiction to sugar. at every meal i would look around for dessert, or if i was eating out i would add ten or so dollars to the cost of my meal to include my sweets. i would feel instant bliss from eating those sugary foods, it was a way to make myself feel better.

i spoke to my naturopathic doctor and did my own research as to why these cravings occur and it all makes lots of sense now. i have undergone lots and lots of stress over the years. i remember my lungs filling up with poison that punctured my heart, my shirts soaking up my tears and collapsing on the ground in a messy heap of sobs. now that i think about it, this happened far too often and i am feeling sorry for my body. what an idiot i was.

i craved sugar and caffeine all the time which in turn forced my adrenal glands to give energy that it was lacking, forcing my body just to get by. those poor little glands must be exhausted from it all.

now, i am taking much better care of myself and the major stressor is gone, however the usual financial stress is always there and increases on certain days. i am now thinking very seriously about my studies. although i have started to see a naturopathic doctor, i have to space out my visits accordingly (as it is very costly!) and she will help me get back on track with my health, but the fees that come with prioritizing my health are high. healthy food is definitely not cheap these days, either.

i have cut refined sugar and caffeine from my life for the most part, which has drastically affected my energy levels and my cravings are skyrocketing. hopefully once i get supplements to support my adrenal glands these cravings will disappear..

 here's some pictures  to torture myself with:

ded.