enjoy life.

just because i finally got photoshop back.

i feel so at peace with life right now. everything is falling perfectly into place as it should be and while there are ups and downs for sure, everything is happening accordingly. there is a reason for everything and the bad just makes the good feel that much better. i have grown so much and learned from the pain my heart has absorbed and have become much stronger as a person. there are so many things i am excited for in life, one of which is finally moving out of bc housing with my family after all these years.

bc housing is pretty awful. the owners or managers of the building can enter your home at any time, which i have sadly grown used to. we are not allowed to have cats or dogs, change the curtains, carpet, or walls. lots of things break down and infestations are common. last year our home was infested with mice and at the moment there are little ants crawling in our kitchen. it just doesn't feel like we have our own home.

however, my family is finally going to be able to have (somewhat) a place of our own. after years of living in a horrible bc housing environment, my mom spoke to me about living downstairs from another family in a bigger home. we will get to paint the walls however we want, change the curtains and nobody can enter our home without our permission! there will still be lots of privacy and my sister and i will still get our own rooms. it is a big step up.

i am currently looking into adopting a kitten and i am very, very excited! i will get him or her on my own, nobody will be allowed to take him/her away from me and there will not be any restrictions. i am currently looking for a scottish fold munchkin, a bengal or siamese. there have been quite a few bengal kittens listed online:

some of which are very expensive while others are more decently priced. i just hope i will find the right one for the right price at the right time! to be honest i have not looked at them until lindsay first expressed that he wanted one, but his cat does not get along well with other cats or kittens.

i have also been looking very intensely for scottish fold munchkins, but they are rare to find! the ONE listing i  was able to find, had only one left and it had straight ears rather than the folded ones. they sell out really fast. siamese are much easier to find, but i have my heart set.

i have never felt so in control of my life before and i am very, very happy. i have not felt so happy about life since i was much, much younger when i watched the world through a child's eyes and truthfully? my life has changed ever since march 26th, when lindsay and i first learned of our feelings for each other. he has injected pure awesome into my life and i am very thankful.